Thursday 10th December
And I did. He led me through large and spacious rooms and up a flight of stairs and into a bathroom. I hadn’t used a bath in years; supershowers were all I was used to. He turned on both large taps and soon the bath was full of hot steamy water. He tossed several large white towels on the floor and said he was just off to find some clothes for me.
I stripped off and was just getting into the water, far too hot – I had to add some cold, when I caught sight of myself in the mirror. I was certainly thinner than I used to be, but I was covered in bruises and grazes, angry purple and yellow welts especially around my lower back and the top of my legs. I started to cry again. I was crying out of relief, and some sort of shock. I had expected to be reported, I had expected Polis and arrest, I had expected brutality of one sort or another. The last thing I had expected was human kindness, and yet that was what I had found almost everywhere. Jonathon and the Aldwych cell were kind to me, Emily and Dan on their farm also, and Charlene too – she had shown me kindness. I just didn’t know how to accept it, that was the problem. And now this strange little man who must have been all of eighty was kindness itself. Even when I had said I was a runaway, he hadn’t seemed fazed at all.
I sank into the hot water and winced as the warmth hit my tired and bruised body. I let myself slide into and under the water, submerging my whole body in it, even letting my head slide under the water. There was soap and shampoo, so old-fashioned, everyone used micro sprays of cleanser fitted into the shower unit itself nowadays, I didn’t realise they still sold bars of soap and bottles of shampoo. I cleaned the layers of dirt off myself and washed my hair at least three times, and rinsed it by sliding time and again under the water. I hauled myself out of the bath and folded my tired but at last clean, if bruised and tender body into the towels.
Downstairs my host had warmed up some soup and nothing had ever tasted better. It was tomato soup, I think. It reminded me of that simple pleasure as a child, coming home on a cold rainy day and my mother heating up a tin of tomato soup. My mother, I hadn’t thought of her in years. She had divorced my father decades ago, and lived in America now. I never saw her these days, just a vidcard at Chrissie; she never looked any older.
“Now young man, I think you had better tell me all about it, and then we will have to decide what to do with you.”
“First I must thank you sir. Most sincerely, i might have died of the cold and exhaustion if you hadn’t let me in.” I looked at him, but he was still smiling that strange slightly benign smile. “I suppose you could call me a reb, but actually I am simply discontented. I was in strata level AC3, and looking back I had nothing to really complain about at all. On a materialistic level in any case. I just couldn’t stand my life anymore; I kept thinking there had to be something else, and so I left that life, and have been on the run ever since I suppose.”
“Yes, I guessed as much.” He said, stroking his chin and reaching for the glass by his side. “And what may I ask have you discovered, in your new-found freedom. Have you found your salvation? Is there a better world out there, outside of the strata system? Well, is there?”
“I honestly don’t know. I was looking for a sort of freedom, but it seems everyone I met was running from something but had found nothing, except alcohol. I met a few drunks, or ‘alcohol dependents’ anyway, I suppose you might call them.”
“Yes.” And he held the half-empty glass of amber liquid up to the light. “The old alcohol conundrum; it has been a bugbear for decades. Was it so harmful that we had to actually ban it? Oh, it was costing the nhs, and private meds of course when they took over, a fortune, and so something had to be done. But I am not sure banning it was the answer. Tobacco – there was never any real merit in the filth, but alcohol is harder to assess. Try some?” and he held the glass out to me.
“You’re not telling me that is actually booze, are you? I haven’t tasted that stuff for over twenty years. How come you are drinking it? It’s illegal.” And I instinctively shied away from both it and him. He was still smiling, or was it mocking me?
“Oh, lots of things are illegal my boy. But that has never stopped people, has it. You see I am in a slightly unique position. I am one of those who make the rules, and of course am allowed to break them too.” And he held up the glass and said “Cheers. Not that anyone outside of this room knows that. And now I have the added dilemma of what to do with you, my friend. I cannot just let you go, walk out of the door and tell everyone what you know. That there is this old man who is one of the elite, who decides how everyone else should behave, who is knocking back antique malt scotch and taking in God knows who from the street. No, that would never do, I am afraid.”
I was suddenly a bit frightened. All of this had been too easy, too simple to believe. And in my desperate and hungry state I hadn’t been thinking straight at all. There was no way anyone would have been this kind to me. This was just the prelude to the inevitable. I was one click away from being arrested. For a moment I toyed with the idea of making a break for it, of rushing the old man and escaping this, admittedly comfortable, place and trying my luck outside again. But I was tired, and weak, and besides he could have had the place surrounded by now; for all I knew this was being recorded as it was happening, and would be even more damning evidence against me if I hurt the old guy.
“So what are you going to do? Are you going to have me arrested, clagged even?”
“I haven’t decided yet. For the moment you are free to stay here, but I must warn you the house is quite secure. Unless I request it the doors and windows are secure both for entrance and exit. Let’s just wait and see. It may be that you could be of some help to me and some close friends of mine. For the moment I can only extend the hand of limited friendship. As I have invited you into my home you are by definition my guest. You must be tired. You will need to sleep soon. But I would like you to be completely honest with me. If I am to help you I must have that understanding.”
And of course I had no choice but to comply. And I was dog-tired. A passing thought ‘had he drugged the tomato soup’ skittered passed my tired brain but it was gone in a moment.
We talked for ages, and I felt I had no choice but to tell him everything. Just as the sun was coming up above the houses opposite he led me like a child up stairs and into a small guest bedroom, and the welcome warmth of a real bed with sheets and blankets, and like the child I had become I crawled into bed, pulled the blankets up and over my head and was asleep in minutes.”